We all seem to seek something.
You may seek that perfect relationship, home or happy life. You may have already achieved some of the dreams that you seek, but there is always more, isn’t there? Whenever we reach one of our goals, another one comes up. In seeking the perfect life, the goalpost moves each time we achieve something.
Seeking drives us in life, becoming an energy of its own. Usually, a bit later in life, the seeking energy becomes more of a spiritual search as we realise none of the material things give us lasting pleasure. The energy of seeking is the same, however, even if the seeking is more of a spiritual type. So it seems that we always seek.
This seeking is based on the condition that we are never happy. There is a constant lack, and this lack creates the seeking energy. This lack is the gap between you and your ultimate salvation. Whatever you do, you always seem to be just a little away from the goal, and the gap appears to remain.
The truth is that we can never fulfil the feeling of lack with our mind.
Like my teacher, Abdy, says:
Anything that starts with a search is fulfilling a lack
This feeling of lack creates suffering, which is the core of the current human experience. We all suffer from something. It might be a physical illness, lack of money, accommodation, love, or anything. And many of us never seem to be achieving what we want. Furthermore, those who claim to have achieved what they want are often in denial. This core drama leads us to live a life of unfulfilled dreams and may lead to dissatisfaction and disappointment, and ultimately, it may trigger depression.
The purpose of suffering is to awaken you to your divine nature, as your true divine nature never suffers. In the world of God, there is no suffering; in the world of Ego, everyone suffers.
As we live in a world of Ego, God is a very distant concept for many. In some countries, people claim to be close to God and pray a lot, but they remain seekers, never getting fulfilled. Some indeed do get closer to God, but most do not. Many religions are a form of control than a genuine connection with our creator.
The key to liberation from the chains of the Ego is to realise that you are nothing. This nothingness seems challenging to the Ego, as Ego’s function is to be something. Nothingness is the only thing Ego does not want.
I recently had this experience where I realised that I am nothing. It freed me from all the ideas and concepts that any teacher had ever created. You see, all ideas are like viruses controlling your mind to think in a certain way. So there is no way to think, and this no-way is the way for liberation.
No way is liberation
As Lisa Cairns says, we are movie characters and do not exist as we are just a field of love expressing itself. I would go even further. Ultimately we are “Nothing At All” in the world of Ego. Only this nothingness stops the loop of the Ego, as within that loop, something is always going on so that the Ego keeps identifying itself through that something. It is a process of identifying yourself with your true self, not your false self.
“I am no more” is one of the most potent mantras I have ever tried. Although nothing can be the way, certain things do help.
I am no more
Our Ego wants to achieve things. Liberation is the opposite of achievement. Most new-age teachings are about accomplishing things. Our Egos strive to get the next certification of being a healer of this and teacher of that. However, the only thing you certify is your Ego. It is challenging to find training about doing nothing or becoming nothing. Matrix Energetics was close to that; its goal was to master the art of doing nothing. Still, that training was way too complex, and now Richard Bartlett has evolved it into something even more complicated.
Nothingness is not pleasing to the masses, and teaching about nothing is not a good business. It is a much better business to educate about complicated Yogic paths to liberation, such as Kriya yoga, or difficult meditation paths, such as TM meditation. If you are on those paths, get out as soon as possible. You have a higher chance of getting enlightened by lying on your bed doing nothing than using any of those techniques. But if you lie on the couch awaiting enlightenment, it is still a method; most likely, nothing will happen! It is a paradox, but nothingness is the key to liberation.
Lisa Cairns got awakened by eating banana chips. If you now go and buy a bag of banana chips, all you get is not feeling that great by eating too many banana chips. Eckhart Tolle got awakened when he stared at the mirror. It does not matter how long you stare at that mirror; you will not get anywhere. Trust me, I tried it!
I recently realised I am nothing when frying plantains on a hot plate. It is not about what you do but about suddenly recognising that you are not who you think you are. Metaphysics can only prepare you for this mystical experience. Unfortunately, it is entirely out of our control when any mystical experiences happen.
This nothingness is about allowing, accepting and surrendering to what is. God is. Nothingness means that you recognise what is without trying to change it. I recently watched a semi-spiritual movie about God. It was wishy-washy, but the core message was right. You cannot be the judge of anything. We tend to judge everything there is. We judge people we see on the street. We judge people based on how they speak or what they believe in. We experience judgement in life so that you would learn not to judge. All the people on this planet demonstrate different aspects of God, and certain people are more in the darkness than in the light. And this darkness makes them do “bad’ things. However, we cannot be the judge, as whatever happens is exactly what needs to happen.
Learning not to judge anything is one of the crucial realisations on the journey to get closer to God.
I had a dream recently where I saw how our thoughts impact the experience we have every day in our lives. Outside our corrupted thoughts is the real, unaltered spirit of ourselves. This spirit, however, is expressing itself through our corrupted thought forms, impacting the manifestation we call life.
If we have “bad” experiences, those are just a reflection of our corruption. Life is corrupt as our thoughts are corrupt. I wish people would understand and see how much their thoughts shape their daily experiences in life. The less you think, the better. The less you become, the better. It is not about learning; it is about un-learning, unbecoming. It is about getting to know who you truly are, and once you get that, the light shines through and changes everything. But most people have never experienced this or know what I am talking about.
Like in the first Matrix movie, once Neo sees the Oracle, she points to the sign “Temet Nosce “, which she explains means Know Thyself. I realised I did not know who I was when I was younger. Only later in my life did I start to know who I was. This process, Know Thyself, is the ancient teaching of the Mysteries. That we awaken to the truth that we are not our bodies, that our bodies have a beginning and an end, but that we are something much more that resides outside our bodies. This process is a mystery and a sacred secret, but it means nothing to know; one must experience it.
Our body is a temporary place where our consciousness dwells for this lifetime. We need to realise that the thoughts we form in our mind about our world are just temporary illusions. All of them. Our fleeting life is nothing at all; however, behind that is the truth. We must go through the “eye of the needle” to reach the other side. We have to become nothing to be able to do that. Then we become everything. This process is very ambiguous and mystical.
“Stillness is your essential nature. What is stillness? The inner space or awareness in which the words on this page are being perceived and become thoughts. Without that awareness, there would be no perception, thoughts, or world. You are that awareness disguised as a person.” Eckhart Tolle
This stillness is the empty space which is what you are. When we realise that you start releasing your spirit from the chains of the illusion (Ego). This process is destructive, and it does mean that your delusions are shattered, and you will experience pain if you hold onto any aspect of this illusion. The more pain you have in your life indicates that you hold onto this illusion.
Once we learn to drop our illusions, it does not mean that we stop doing stuff here in this 3D world. We still function and do the things that we need to do. However, things will undoubtedly change as you find it harder to do things unaligned with your truth. This process often leads to dramatic life changes, which is precisely what you should go through as the next phase of the liberation process.
Awakening and liberation end suffering and pain, but you may have to undergo suffering and pain when you release the attachments to the illusion. But you will never return once you taste what’s on the other side. The disappearance of this world and the appearance of your true self is the end of seeking.